#self conscious

[lovebvni]

EGO; a callout.

unknowingly, for years now, i’ve been struggling with my own inner ego. what was that ego doing? basically telling me to never take no for an answer.

i want to preface by saying this doesn’t have to be a sign for you, you could be following me and have seen this and i’m a relatively large account here on tumblr, somehow. this also does not apply to all things. this, for the most part, does not apply to reality shifting. when you ask “i’m i going to shift at ‘x’ time and you get a ‘no’, that doesn’t mean give up! there’s a difference between PERSISTENCE (positively defying odds) and NEGATIVE DEFIANCE. i just so happen to negatively be defying what im told.

this post is to simply inform, help people with self concept, and for me to move forward. this will be me exposing myself negatively and some humiliation so i can move forwards. this is not negative self talk, this is putting down the ego that has controlled me for so long.

let me also say ego is something all of us have. how much of it you have determines if it’s good or bad.

since i was young, i was always pushy. i would force my friends to do things i didn’t personally want to do, persuade my parents (because they are divorced) to give me special things because i was sad… and because of that i didn’t like being told no. i still don’t. whenever the word “no” or “not this time” came out of someone’s mouth, i would get angry and throw tantrums. i would take it out on THEM because THEY didn’t see my best interest in mind.

to this day, i am like that. if my mother called me and i asked her to buy me something that i could buy myself, and she said no, i would probably really pissed off at her and shut her out. she’s providing for two kids and two dogs and I have the NERVE to ask her to take money out of HER paycheck from a job SHE just got to buy me something i can ACTIVELY afford myself? no, bitch. that’s fucking ego.

just recently, i had a show, and my mom told me glue eyelashes were harmful, so she didn’t want me getting them for a church show. i didn’t like that answer so i ARGUED with her in PUBLIC about getting FAKE EYELASHES WITH HER MONEY for a SHOW. not even for personal use or to go to school, for a show. a one time thing that would not be long term.

when i finally pushed her over the edge and she caved, i bought them, tried them, used them, and didn’t like them. i went back to the store a week and a half later to return them.

i thought I KNEW what was best for me, and even if i did, i still IGNORED my mothers guidance, went against her will, and did what I WANTED TO DO.

WHAT YOU WANT TO DO ISNT ALWAYS THE RIGHT THING. YOU NEED TO HAVE DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVES FOR A REASON! why do you think most shifters and manifestors only shift/manifest after being in a community and getting guidance? BECAUSE THEY HAVE A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.

this has happened a lot to me, with friends, advisors, teachers, and more. yet i’m going to be a cunt and decide only I know what’s best for me. that, inherently, is not true. the voice in your head or heart is not always telling you the truth, sometimes it’s making you delusional.

this can also be flipped on its head, as you can absolutely be right but you allow yourself to be walked all over. this is a lack of ego. you let everyone else’s words guide you and never ask your intuition or inner self for help until it’s too late.

you’re neglecting yourself, and i believe it’s a form of self hatred.

you need to find a balance, and a balance for you. don’t allow yourself to be stepped on, but allow yourself to be pushed in directions you don’t like all the time.

live in your truth, but without rose-coloured glasses or a log in your eye. Or how can you say to your neighbor, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye' while the log is in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your neighbor's eye." Matthew 7:4-5.

from a place that was hiding in my heart,

the abyss

[theycantalk]

approval

[manifestmagnets]

𝗙𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗠𝗔𝗞𝗘 𝗶𝘁 !! ✨🧿

Don't know where to start with manifesting ? start by being delusional. ˚ · .˚ ༘🦋⋆｡˚

Manifesting is so easy but some people like to complicate it so much ,i don't even know why. You just need to be delusional and have belief in the UNIVERSE you have to embody what you want. Act as if its already yours or it's true you ;you want a $10k , YOU HAVE $10K !! no doubt on that. And this way the universe has no option but to give you what want because you believe its going to happen for you. 🎀🎀🎀🎀

╰┈➤You want your dream job , you're already working your dream job.

╰┈➤You want your dream car , you're already driving your dream car.

╰┈➤You want your SP to like you back , you guys are already dating.

╰┈➤You want a glow up , what do you mean.. you're the most attractive person in your friend group.

''fake it till you make it ,'' but you've got to believe its already yours. Your mind and body and soul needs to believe its already yours and there is no there option.

this methods will also help you if you want to be confident BE DELUSIONAL !!

''delulu is the solulu'' - but it actually is!!

[young-goddessx]

[clara-scintilla]

Preserving

[ivemanifest]

Your perspective can change everything.

[libraalynn]

[desigirldairies]

Ear care — the most unspoken body care.

- ear care if one of the most neglected and overlooked body care it is as important as your face routine. Each and every, part of your body needs attention and care 🫶, and my desi babies if you really want to slay those jhumkes you really need to take care of your ear. Anyways let's get started.

1. Cleaning : Clean your outer ear gently with a washcloth. Avoid inserting anything into your ear canal, such as cotton swabs or other objects, as this can push wax deeper or even cause damage.

2. Earwax Management : Let your ears naturally clean themselves. Earwax helps protect your ears from dust, dirt, and bacteria. Do not use eard buds DO. NOT. Baby girlies please don't it can cause problems in hearing and affect your eardrum.

If you have excessive earwax buildup that causes discomfort or affects your hearing, consult a doctor for safe removal.

3. Protection: Wear ear protection in noisy environments, such as concerts, construction sites, or when using loud equipment like lawnmowers or power tools. Earplugs or earmuffs can help prevent hearing damage.

4. Avoiding Water : Keep water out of your ears while bathing, swimming, or showering. Use earplugs or a shower cap to protect your ears, especially if you've had ear surgery or have a history of ear infections.

5. Electronic devices : use airpods, earphones or headphone max 3 hours not more than that and always keep the volume at the adequate level in order not to affect your ear and brain.

6. Regular Check-ups : Visit an audiologist or healthcare professional for regular ear check-ups, especially if you experience changes in hearing, ear pain, or other ear-related issues.

7. Healthy Lifestyle : Maintain a healthy lifestyle, as conditions like high blood pressure and diabetes can impact your ear health. Stay hydrated, eat a balanced diet, and manage stress levels.

Taking these simple steps can help keep your ears healthy and functioning well. 🫶

This is my first blog btw please support 😭🎀 .

[pratchettquotes]

"And Mrs. Earwig," said Mistress Weatherwax, her voice sinking to a growl, "Mrs. Earwig tells her girls it's about cosmic balances and stars and circles and colors and wands and...and toys, nothing but toys!" She sniffed. "Oh, I daresay that's all very well as decoration, somethin' nice to look at while you're workin', somethin' for show, but the start and finish, the start and finish, is helpin' people when life is on the edge. Even people you don't like. Stars is easy, people is hard."

She stopped talking. It was several seconds before birds began to sing again.

"Anyway, that's what I think," she added in the tones of someone who suspects that she might have gone just a bit further than she meant to.

Terry Pratchett, A Hat Full of Sky

[cinta-de-shiba]

Si Dios ha muerto... no me toques los cojones, hombre ya

[fandoms--fluff]

Hi requests for flufftober .

Can u do a fluff where the reader is plus size

And is in a relationship with klaus.

Can u make her Indian because being fat is looked down upon in India I am telling you this because I am Indian and I get fat shame d by my own family .

Can u please make her story same as mine where she goes through what I am going through and Klaus comforts her by kissing every inch of her body and leaving hickeys.

He also calls her beautiful.

If u are not ok with writing this or want to cut any part that u are not okay me .

U are free to do it .

Beautiful

Flufftober, October 2nd

Female reader x Klaus Mikaelson

Warnings: mentions of body hate/dysmorphia, mentions of being bullied

A/n: please don't read if you think it will affect your mental health, remember it's important!

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You're sat across from your soon to be husband, Klaus Mikaelson, the one and only original hybrid. You've been across town all day and made reservations for this fancy restaurant just out of New Orleans so no one could interupt you guys.

You guys have just ordered, unknowingly, your arms wrapped around your midsection, sort of acting as a shield so no one can see your stomach rolls. Even in the stunning black midi dress that you've felt confident in all day, you have actions you do unconsciously for being self conscious about your body.

Basically most of your life, people have either commented on your weight or looked at you with that look, you got that look through your teens the most. Especially considering you didn't look the same as everyone else, and that's good, you're your own person, until it comes to weight. Then apparently you're not good enough and looked down upon by other teens, adults, and even your own family.

You had a phone call with your mother the night before while Klaus was in the shower. Said phone call almost brought you to tears. At the start, you were having a good conversation with your mom, until she brought up how she went to the mall with her friends the other day. She spoke about how she saw the perfect wedding dress that you would love by all the photos of inspo you've shown her since your and Klaus' engagement. But then she said, 'if only you were tinier like your cousins, then maybe you could try and squeeze into the biggest size of the dress'. She went on and in about how the biggest size wasn't even big enough for you to even try to try on.

That hasn't been the worst conversation with your Mom in a longshot, but it still hurt. It hurt even more, knowing it was your own mother saying those things. Yes, you may not look the same as everyone else, but you've been trying to love your body just the way it is. But things like that obviously doesn't help your feelings or self esteem.

You feel something lay against your hand, snapping out if your thoughts, you looked up at Klaus, seeing his hand placed on top of yours. His thumb is softly rubbing up and down to side of your hand.

"Love? Are you alright? You spaced off for a moment there" Klaus softly smiles.

"Oh, um yeah, just thinkin. Nothing to worry about" you give a tight lip smile.

Klaus nods, keeping in his head about your stranger-than-normal attitude, but it's not a bad thing, it's just concerning to him.

You guys get home from the restaurant around 10pm, everyone's either out or has fallen asleep super early.

You're standing in front of the mirror in your guys' room. You haven't changed out of your dress yet, instead staring at every part of your body that you're insecure about. There hasn't been any way to stop you from doing this. You would try, but then end up close to tears or crying in front of a mirror. The worst times this has happened has been in a changing room at stores.

That's what you thought, before Klaus steps back into the room.

He pauses his movements, seeing you frowning in front of the mirror, sucking your stomach in as much as you can. You look over to him, eyes widening. Klaus just caught you doing one of the only things you never wanted him to know that you do.

"Klaus, this is not what you think this is, I'm just..." you start, not knowing what to say, you trail off.

Klaus walks over to you and cups your face in his hands. "Love, you can tell me the truth, you always can" he tells you, having a senaking suspicion of what's going on, but wants you tell him on your terms.

He leads you over to the bed, sitting down with his hand resting on your thigh. You take a couple deep breathes, "I'm too big. I wish I was skinny, I've wished that since the first time someone ever brought up how I look different than everyone else. I've hated my body for over a decade, my mom was probably the worst thing about it. She would always tell me how I was fat without thinking twice. And she never understood and still doesn't how that makes someone feel, especially a teenage girl who's already miserable everytime she has to take foot in a high school where everyone says even worse things some how" you rant to your fiance, tears streaming down your face. "I hate my body so much" you whisper.

Klaus immediately pulls you in to his arms. He kisses the top of your head multiple times. "I'm so sorry you've had to go through this, and still do?" You nod your head. "You are perfect how you are. You should never compare yourself to others or listen to what others say you should look like." Klaus lists off.

"I love you so much, you're so perfect, and gorgeous the way you are. You should never think different" Klaus pulls away, looking at you with emotion in his eyes.

"R-really? I love you too. N-no one has ever said that. I've grown up hating myself" you whimper.

"Everything I said is true, and you should never hate yourself, being who you are now is everything to me" he slowly lays you down onto your back.

"And I will make sure you know this every day" he murmurs as he trails his lips all over your face and down your neck. He presses kisses all down your exposed collarbone and chest.

He keeps going all the way down, kissing your fabric covered stomach and waist, and hips. He goes down to your ankles, until kissing the top of your feet gently.

"You love, are so beautiful" he whispers into your ear. You cuddle into his suit covered chest with a slight smile on your face.

"You're the one person I feel safest with. Thank you so much. I love you Klaus" you look up at him. "I will always be here for you, I love you too, beautiful" he kisses your forehead and holds your hand.

[lovebvni]

Philippians 4:7

“Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”

[itzzey]

Self love is the highest frequency that attracts everything you desire .

[wanderingmind867]

Pretty much ever since my mom died (give or take), I've been taking these online social skills classes (comprised of autistic kids in grades 7-8 of Elementary School and grades 9-12 of High School). It started because my dad and I both felt I needed more practice with social interaction, but I only kept with it because the people who run the program are really, really nice. But for years i've been taking this program (since I can take it as long as I'm in High School). I've been taking it for so long that I don't even remember how many times I've taken it. But I know that this year is going to wind up being my last year of High School. And so that means this is probably my last (or possibly second to last) chance to take this social skills class. And I have very, very mixed opinions on this.

On the one hand, the kids in the classes have been a very mixed bag. Some have been very obnoxious, to the point where I dreaded making a phone call with them. They were noisy and weird and all around uncomfortable to deal with. But some were pretty tolerable. Some of them I still vaguely remember (I suppose it makes sense I can only remember some of them vaguely), and they weren't awful kids. If I were a braver and bolder person, i would have tried to keep in touch with them. But I was never brave or bold enough for that. I have some of their phone numbers, but i'm too cowardly to try to keep in touch with any of the other students.

But beyond the students, the teachers have been amazing too. I actually have sort of kept in touch with one of the teachers, but mostly because my dad helps by making first contact through email. But the teachers for the program are wonderful, and they're probably 90% of the reason I stuck with the thing (because the lessons are always the same each time, and the students are a very mixed bag). But i'll admit, I also kept taking the class because I didn't want to forget the lessons. We practiced social interaction by making phone calls to other students. And even though i always got my dad to help me script some discussion topics for the calls, just making the phone calls themselves was very good practice for me.

So the classes have been very useful for me, I think. I mean… I haven't actually made any new friends from the classes (probably because I don't keep in touch with the people I've called, and they don't keep in touch with me). So on the whole, my friend count is still zero (besides my dad). But I think it's still been good practice for me. Even just practicing calling people and learning the rules of basic social interaction has been helpful for me.

So I'm a little sad that this might be my last time taking the course. I'm scared that if I stop taking it, I'll lose all the lessons it's taught me and i'll end back just as bad socially as I was before I began taking these courses. So thinking about it being my last time makes me feel incredibly nervous, and I really don't like that. It's just yet more stress if an existential variety, shoved on my plate against my will. I hate the passage of time.

[sailor-egg]

Self Conscious/Voyeurs

[chaosobsidienne]

You know the feeling when you become too self aware with the way you walk or breath and then you just can't do it properly anymore?

Well i'm too aware that I’m alive and I just can’t stop doing it wrong now.